Thursday, August 25, 2005
yes..!! exams over..!! hehe..2day's paper kinda difficult..oh well..pray 4 e best now..haha.. dam scared i have 2 repeat sia..but oh well..
kinda moody now..haix..mind is full of stuff.. if onli they accept him.. some1 told mi sth.. i guess its true..but i believe he learnt his lesson.. he will work hard 4 mi.. im willing 2 wait.. tt's not e prob now.. e prob is he is not as confident as i m.. when its hard 2 meet..he tink negatively.. n everyting seem 2 go wrong again.. i try hard baby.. i do.. baby believe in us ok? dun let ur emotions take over u.. ur mind.. believe in urself.. i will always love n wait 4 u... i dun tink u'll read dis entry..ahaha..u'll onli go our blog now..its ok..i'll write it in our blog oso..
kinda feel beta le..guess wat im afraid of is not wat ppl tink of us..but wat he tink of us.. n wat his mind is telling him.. k..gg 2 update our blog now..
waiting for every moment 2 b wif u...
thinking of you @ 9:33 PM
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
2 papers down n counting..!! hehe.. act e papers r not tt difficult esp if u studied..hahaha..but den again here n there cant realli rem..den juz anyhow explain myself..i tink it sux.. my explanation i mean..hehe..but okok lo..hehe..tml is stats juz read thru e theory..think sure cant rem oso..haha nvm ba..tml mornin if got mood juz look thru again lo..not definations ba..oso cant rem de..hehe juz hope e qn not hard lo..den can score fr there..hehehe
yes..!! they let mi out on fri..!! wahahaha..so happy..but can tell my mum oso dun reali wan let de lo..haix..i mean sort of expected..i tink sure is dad tell mum let mi go de..haix..oh well..n guess wat?! they let mi work during hols..!! hehehe..happy happy.. guess i was wrong e letter did help mi somehow..i need 2 give them more time..baby wait wif mi okie? i love u.. hmm.. reali reali hope mum would accept tings.. but noe sth? my story sounds kinda like some1 i noe..n tt some1's story ended sad..haix..somehow there is dis fear tt my story will end like their's haix..i shan't tink anymore..juz tink of fri fri n fri..!! hehe..but mum kept sayin wat fri dun go out 2 early..den wat dun come back 2 late..haix..den wat u wan mi 2 do sia?! haix..4get it..im tired..aren;t u? u always said dun gif u stress..but somehow those stress is u wan 2 put it there..kinda like mi..haix..i try not 2 put it there liao..but e fear of e both of u make mi stress..haix..i wan 2 b carefree..mum stop it ok? im turing 17..plx..i wan a life..a happy life wif frdx 2.. haix.. or m i in e wrong? as usual? sigh....
sometimes i reali feel bad..i noe u care tts y u r like tt..i noe u b e bad person so tt my life will not b painful..but mum..im trapped..btwn u both n him..sigh..its kinda hard figuring tings out like dis.. when we r not meant 2 b.. we wun.. we'll end up breakin up..mayb i waste my life but den its ok ba..i chose my path..i'll live with it n face all e probs..mayb its meant 2 b tt way? hmm..wateva happens..i reali hope u'll support my decisions even if u tink its wrong..ok? i love u both n of cos wei yi.. i reali hate 2 b rude 2 u esp u mum.. but den haiz...
tearing--*
thinking of you @ 9:16 PM
Monday, August 15, 2005
been some time since i last update..haha..nth much 2 update ba..life seem 2 get pretty boring.. haha..except tt next wk is exam wk..!! haha..so fast 1 sem gone liao..cant believe sia..oh well..den aft tt can enjoy..hehe..cos nth 2 study oso ma..next sem study wat module i oso dun noe.. hope i dun need 2 take sup test 4 any modules or haf 2 repeat any module..if not..i sure die..haha..esp since i told dad i wun let my r/s get into my studies..but act..is more of i dun noe how 2 do e papers itself..nvm..i muz study..i cant seem 2 find e mood 2 study sia..haix..dis wk study break.. but i hol mood..oh well..
i miss my baby..i hope his stomach feels beta..hehe.. *ilu..
i miss all my frdx..esp my sec sch frdx.. haix.. i miss e life 2..oh well..e complicated yet simple life..
thinking of you @ 9:43 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
juz nw watch a bit of ndp..den saw kat chan on tv..!! omg..haha..cant believe..den i str away call xw jie..but she not hm..call her hp no1 pick up..so i msg her lo..hehe..den realise she wif chris they all @ city hall watchin fireworks.. i asked y nv ask mi..? haha..den she say "...well, u free meh?..." somehow..those words affected mi.. haha.. feels so out of place..i reali neglected all my frdx.. i reali sux man.. haix.. sms baby say i sad..he bz playin wif frdx ba... im feeling mixed up rite now.. haix......
i dun noe.. all e stupid negative feeling comin back 2 mi le.. mayb tt's wat happen wif her.. suan le.. dun tink le ba..
baby..where r u when i need u...? *crying alone...
thinking of you @ 9:32 PM
Monday, August 08, 2005
haix..y does frdx leave one by one? i feel so detached fr one of my kor.. last time we quite close.. now.. haix..online dun talk liao..well.. is it cos...... suan le..i dun wan 2 tink anymore... 1 frdship prob is enough.. made mi tink for gg 2yrs liao.. haix..
sometimes i dun noe wat ppl is tinking..but everytime it seems like its my fault i made ppl upset cos i dun tink b4 i act..i wan sth i wan it.. haix.. i dun noe.. im tired of tinkin.. my brain cells dying.. somehow tt loneliness feeling starts 2 come back le..haix.. my frdx.. him.. fam.. relatives.. i dun noe i feel so alone.. everyting i do seem wrong.. wat is gg on in my life?! haix..
*crying in pain.. hu will understand n save mi....?!
thinking of you @ 9:01 PM
Friday, August 05, 2005
2day juz fin marketin proj..FINALLY..!!!!!!! oh man..so happy..but our presentation screwed up cos of mi.. haix..yest go print out e ppt..den 4get to take diskette..when go hm den realise lost.. haix..i wan 2 cry ar..!!!! den try calling almost every1...!! haha..den keep callin jie yong hoping he'll save somewhere else oso..but he didnt..haix.. but he not bad..say he rush out by 2day..he did but e diskette got prob or wat..took so long 2 open..den in e middle hang..haix.. but den they went 2 photocopy the peer evaluation found e diskette.. i wanted 2 kill myself rite den rite there...!!!! haix.. my dad say typical mi ar..so careless..haha..den let teacher open n c e ppt again wahahaha..jie yong say e teacher say not bad..haha.. oh well over le.. but i beta dun forget 2 take diskette again..!!! wahaha.. oh ya decided to gif every1 in e group excellent hehe.. cos they reali touched mi last min..wahahaha.. act its nice 2 work wif dis group sia..haha though a lot is i fen pei..*sound like i so bhb..* but nvm la..hehe..@ least they all cooperation n do e work even though i waited so long 4 some1..wahahaha..but its ok..hehe..next time work again..!! now is left eff com ica3..haha..plus ica4 bis software..next wk last wk of sch..haha..e following wk is study break den exams..!!!!
yay..!! lata meeting baby..hehe..hope can find a wallet sia..his wallet spoil till veri bad liao..sobx..my fault..i miss him so badly..!! hehe.. muacks..!! shall go update our blog plus wei yi n mine..ifnot wei yi gg 2 b sad sad liao..haix..she make it sound like i neglecting her..sobx..
exam comin in 3wks..!! but onli count got 2wks 2 study..sobx..im dying..haven start expected la..haha..but nvm..dis time round got baby pei mi..hehe..c him study so nice.. hehe muacks..i believe in us..*ilu..
thinking of you @ 12:38 PM